我有多討厭這個樣子, 就有多想消失.
不知道要消失的是人, 還是那個樣子...
剩餘的日子裡, 不知道還有多少次面對著這個樣子.
實在感到很累, 我只覺自己越來越弱.
那起伏, 比記錄我們平日玩拱豬得分的折線圖的起伏還要大.
昨天不是還衷心地說要學習活得簡單一點, 開心一點, 今晚卻又千愁萬緒湧上心頭...
縱然燃起的只因那一丁點的壓力, 無法走出去, 我還是選擇哭了.
究竟發生甚麼事? 可惡的, 就是沒有甚麼事發生.............
不是說至少在九月完結前不要哭的嗎?...
這回還要加上一點害怕, 實在不敢再說了, 坦白說, 我怕被人討厭...
我有努力嗎? 我有努力呀.
是要對自己寬容一點, 還是就是因為太寬容了? 有時候真的弄不清楚.
還是掩面不要看了...
反正, 睡醒了, 應該也會沒事的吧...
Thursday, 13 September 2007
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需要釋放負情緒的時侯，就釋放它吧~ 我覺得會讓自己放輕一點。
ReplyDelete保重呀!!!
Pray for u.
ReplyDeleteThe best is yet to come - it is what I believe.
一切隨心所慾,自然會輕鬆一些,自己開懷一點,世界也會美好一點!
ReplyDeleteThe best is yet to come-- I agree with Ching...
ReplyDeleteEveryone dislikes to be disliked. I do too.
Cry if it helps, but remembers that God's love for you is greater than all this.
Pray for you.
raymond,原來你也有來這裡,謝謝你呢!大家咁話,你明架喇:)
ReplyDelete菁,真的謝謝你!不知要說甚麼,但也不需說太多,彷彿你都明架喇:)
奕希,這個嘛,我仍在努力學習,你提下我喇!(題外話,rosa結婚喇!)
islander,也真的謝謝你!你總是像個大哥哥!我昨晚也真的有如你所說的想起神的愛,完全的愛!
昨晚呀,post了上來後,我曾delete過,因寫完後,冷靜過後,我就想起你們看見我寫這些,又會安慰我,擔心我之類,我就覺得很不好意思.像是惹人注意的舉動,但不貼上來,我又彷彿覺得對不起自己似的,又收收埋埋了...我呀,就是這麼一個奇怪地想得太多的人,但是呀,尤其經過今晚,我就覺得身邊的人都對我都很好...不知道,或許歲月就是這樣過去了:)
邊個係rosa?
ReplyDeletehey..i am back
ReplyDelete我就不覺得你是seek attention的人，不要多心。Seek attention的人，是另外一種表達方式的。你只是...常常都不開心。唔開心又有好多原因，旁人好難一下子明白。
ReplyDelete講到擔心，其實真係有DD架，大佬前日先同我傾過你個blog，覺得擔心咯。我見你面色又麻麻地，好蒼白，梗係訓得唔好啦。不過你千期唔好唔寫wor，愈唔開心愈要逼自己講，自己愈鑽愈深仲衰！我地受得到WOR，亦都唔會因為你講而覺得唔好咯。幾十歲人，點會無風無浪丫。明果播！
人地中唔中意自己，有時真係無所謂。我常常阿Q地想，‘你又唔係出糧俾我，你唔中意我有乜所謂。’點知今朝就俾出糧俾我個人話啦。結果？唔開心咪又係甘過，佢唔會炒我既。算咯。
不過如果係自己唔中意自己，就大件事D，真係唔係三言兩語處理到...為你祈禱呀！
有句聖經時時成為我座右銘：
一宿雖然有哭泣，早晨定必歡呼。詩30：5
Please don't stop writing my friend.
ReplyDeleteI value my relationships with all that around me very much, to a point that, sometimes I am killing myself... Trying to please eveyone will lead me to pleasing no one, including myself.
You are a valuable, beautiful individual in God's eye - your value, your meaning is in Him, not on those who you think dislike you. Plus, there are too many people out there just dislike everything, everyone, every moment. :)
My friend, if we don't like ourseleves to begin with, on what grounds can we ask others to like us?
I like you. ;)
Sorry, the one above... was Pam. :)
ReplyDelete奕希,"梁記",你忘記了?
ReplyDelete無人,回來就好喇,不用在那邊悶喇,這回應該沒有沙給我了吧:)
stella,大佬,不要擔心喇...我還可以的!就這樣靜靜地,靜靜地...stella,話時話,那晚我寫完後去你的blog,讀了你寫關於細佬生日收到女孩子短訊那篇後,居然收了一點眼淚...坦白說,也不完全因為你寫得很精彩,可能是夠長,分了我心喇:)說笑,你不介意吧!但真的想謝謝你!
dear pam,你真的常常不吝嗇對我說"我很好","很喜歡你"之類的說話,謝謝你的鼓勵,讓我抱你一下~
我,會寫吧,只是通常當寫完後,看到自己寫出的這麼灰,就覺得不太好...希望你們看到的是開心有趣的東西多些!
I fully understand your feeling, I know the feeling being hatred is no good at all. When I was a little kid, all my relatives dislike me simply just cos'I don't have a beautiful face. But you, you are difference, you really have beautiful face and you are a smart girl. I always so admire you that you are so talented in music, yet, you are always so humble.
ReplyDeleteMy self-esteem used to fall into a deep valley for many many years. However, I told myself, well, God never create some useless and ugly human while I am also created by HIM, I know I must have something valuable and I know I am always precious in God's eyes.
We can never please everyone in our life anyway as we can never able to love everybody in our life (at least I can't, hehe)in return. Honestly speaking, I really feel very comfortable whenever I talk with you and you are always so sincere that kind of character is not easy to be found in this complexity world of HK. You are really wonderful!! I will pray for you.
xxoo
阿雲，多謝你睇我個blog呀。如果可以叫你開心一點，出賣我細佬都抵呀。
ReplyDelete其實我表姐(弟弟剛死了那個)成日睇我個blog，所以，我更加想寫多些趣事，消減她心裡的憂傷。
唔開心同開心，都係生活既一部分，有時唔開心多D，有時會少D，好自然。
miranda(恕我出賣了你的真名,這樣親切一點),謝謝你的分享呢!你也太誇獎了,令我汗顏.比起以前,已沒有那麼怕別人不喜歡自己,可能老喇,力水都少咁d,但對於一些重視的人,仍然會很敏感吧!想起來,我是抱歉自己有時候不太懂跟你們談話,覺得自己反應太慢又太少說話,所以見面時會避過了(嘩,這會否太坦白了...?!),又或許若不是這裡,或你們的blog,我也少了很多好朋友呢...
ReplyDeletestella,除了你出賣人的文章,我更喜歡tammy出賣你的留言呢!真的相當抵死,就像她在我眼前~
不知要寫下什麼, 可是又想說點什麼鼓勵的說話, 有時候我在情緒方面連自己也顧不好, 卻又很想有力量支持身邊的人, 願那賜力量的神與我們同在!
ReplyDelete萍凡人,好嗎?明白你的心意,謝謝你呢~
ReplyDelete